I miss……

I miss…..
I don’t know what do I miss!!
But I really do miss something…..

Something  important..
Or something I used to it as an IMPORTANT thing..

“It’s ironic to talk about what you thought -yesterday- would be your future in the PAST TENSE -today-”

It really hurts when you think of all these memories as they’re memories.. an unrepeatable events..
You try to get used to put all your usual activities’ verbs in the past perfect tense..

You start practicing a new language you have never learned, you have never asked to learn it.. a language full of “forgetting, giving up, dropping, moving on, heartbreaking, unforgiving and disappointment” verbs..
After you used to know only all the nice words.. “Love, missing, caring, compassion, spoiling” and the hardest word you experienced before was “Jealousy”..

Your young heart didn’t expect all what happened later..
It didn’t see all that coming!!

But as I said it is “YOUNG” , and it’ll survive..
No matter how long it takes.. after a while it’ll get over..
And you’ll experience new nice words, because you will be enjoying having a stronger heart..
At least it will be aware of the taste of a BROKEN HEART..

The Collateral Damage..

When you pretend that you feel the world around..

When you eat without tasting,
and sleep without resting..

When you walk and talk,
like a Zombie..

When you smile, and might even laugh,
without your soul..

When your mind becomes so helpless,
and your heart is already so hopeless..

When your thoughts are unstoppable,
and yesterday  is unforgettable..

When your tears can fill an ocean..

When the damage inside you is greater than the World War’s..

IT’S THE COLLATERAL DAMAGE OF A HEARTBREAK..
IT MAKES YOU A COMPLETELY WALKING DEAD!!! 

Yesterday, today and tomorrow

Reblogged from shrookasfour:

Yesterday, today and tomorrow..

The whole life is about them.. we all actually have three days in our whole life.. it’s the world’s age..

Don’t you ever regret yesterday.. because there must have been something you learnt in that day..

And everything we learn in life we pay for it… cash money, life years or even attention..

We have to learn from our mistakes..

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what a woman wants?!

What a woman wants?
A question most of men are looking for an answer to it,,,

Actually, it has too many answers, a man can not handle a woman because he can not find all the answers, some caring men have found most of answers, and their women are happy, and have love satisfaction..

a woman can be happy with some of everything, or with all of something..

I mean, for example, she needs you to care, she needs you to show caring.. she needs you to die of jealousy of any other people around her..

she wants to feel your compassion when she is afraid or worried, she needs you to cheer her up when she is depressed, she needs to see you all the time, and when you are out of her sight, she needs to hear your voice, or even to feel your spirit, even with a text message..

she needs to feel that she is the main foundation of all your dreams, without her all your life will break down, she needs to feel your loyalty, actually, she must see it.. because whenever she trusts you, she can give you anything you wish.. she’ll make all your dreams come true, because a loving woman can be a fairy with a magical stick..

she’ll help you with thoughts, and she’ll give you the push you need.. whenever you give her some of what she wants..

she needs also someone tender, or something, she’d do anything for a tender look from the one she loves, for a tender touch, for a tender hug, she’d even need a tender fight..

she doesn’t need someone to understand her, because this is difficult, she just needs someone to talk to her and listen her carefully.. because women aren’t the same at everything, they are all emotional, but they are emotional differently, they always need men.. all of them..

because neither women are perfect, nor men are.. but they together can be perfect.. because after all she is created of him, and he is born of her.. that’s why women need men around always to feel safe, and that’s why when he is disappointed he doesn’t find comfort anywhere but between her arms..

they complete each other, and that’s all what a woman needs, SOMEONE TO COMPLETE HER..

she just can’t specific what she needs this clearly..

I, myself, don’t need more than that, “my other half”.. “my soul-mate”.. “my twin”.. or whatever, you’d name him..

Perfection

I’ve always tried to be perfect, but I could NOT..
because every single time I do a perfect thing, I make a sin somehow..

Once I smile in somebody’s face, my smile “STEALS” his soul..

Once I forgive somebody hurt me, it “KILLS” him..

I am trying always to be beautiful from the inside as much as I am from the outside, but people calls this “PRIDE”..

So I am trying sometimes to be ugly, trying really hard, to let those who are less beautiful than me feel they are beautiful too, and that’s “LYING”..

And I always give so much hopefully to gain more, and that’s “GREED”..

So as you can see, I am trying really hard to be perfect, but it seems to lead me to the hell..
and I am not going there alone.. NOWAY..
because I’ve never been that “SELFISH” to enjoy the hell alone!!!

Shrook Asfour

لمه؟

عندما قابلتنى للمرة الأولى سألت متعجبا “من عساه يدعك تفلتين من يده؟!”..
أخبرتك أن هذا الـ”من” طرح علىّ سؤالا مشابها لسؤالك هذا، وكان أكثر تعجبا منك، وبالرغم من هذا فقدنى!!
هذا الـ”من” كنت قد جئتٌه بعد تمنٍ ورجاء وأحلام وصلوات من أجل الحصول علىّ، من أجل إمتلاكى..
ولكن….
كعادة البشر.. دائما ما أضاعونى، بعدما تمنونى!!

ففى البداية، قبل أن يملكونى..
يحلمون بى..
ويصلون من أجل الحصول علىّ..
بل ويحسدون من يمتلكنى!!

ولكن بعدما يحصلون علىّ..
ويملكونى بالفعل..
يزهدونى،
ولا يشعرون بقيمتى،
ولا يشعرون بوجودى إطلاقا!!

رغم أنهم لا يتخيلون حيواتهم من دونى،،،
كيف كانت من قبلى؟!
وكيف ستكون من بعد فقدانى؟!

تلك أشياء لا تأتى إلى الخيال..
ولا يذهب إليها الخيال..

ولكن عندما لايشعر الإنسان بنعمة وجودى فى حياته،
أذهب وأختفى إلى الأبد..

عندها يهتز الكون من حول هذا الإنسان.. ويبدأ فى إستعادة كل شعور كان قد فقد الإحساس به..
يبدأ فى حساب وتقدير الخسائر.. الخسائر التى لم تكن قد خطرت فى خياله قط سابقا..

وعندها يعود ليتمنى ويرجو ويحلم ويصلى..
ولكن هيهات!!
أنا لا أعود لباب غادرته قط.. ولا أفتح صفحة قد طويتها..

ولكن ماذا عساى أن أقول!!
تلك هى طبيعتكم أيها البشر..
لا تشعرون بقيمة ما تملكونه..
حُرمتم التقدير!!

حتى أنت.. الآن.. ورغم تحذيرى إياك..
رغم كل ما رويته على مسامعك..
أعلم تماما بل وأراهنك أنك ستفقدنى بكل إستهتار وحماقة..
وغدا ستقول “ويحى، لقد حذرتنى (الفرصة) ، ورغم هذا أضعتُها”…

Shrook Asfour

The Break Up

Breaking up with someone loves you is the most difficult thing in the relationships…

Because you don’t wanna feel guilty, you don’t wanna this happen to you oneday, and you don’t wanna break a heart…

But you really stopped loving that person, and the more you are with him the more you hate him…

It’s not good to hate someone you used to love oneday, because you will start hating yourself too, for loving someone like this…

Notice that “you stopped loving him for a reason” , mostly for his carelessness…you feel that you don’t gain as much as you give, sometimes you gain less, sometimes you gain nothing at all… and both are not good…

And when he notice that he is gonna lose you, he tries to do what you love.. what you always asked him to do when you were caring… but all what he is doing is just going in vain NOW, because you really don’t give a damn ..

Shrook Asfour

A broken heart

  “You broke my heart”, “don’t break my heart”, “my heart is broken”…

We hear these sentences so many times in songs and poem, but how many of us have really tested that horrible feeling?!

I don’t really know, but I think so many people know that feeling, some of us fell in love only once, and haven’t tried again, and closed their hearts in the love’s face, because they tested that pain once, and they didn’t want to test it again..

Some of us tried to forget the pain with a new love, and some found it finally, but some were hurt again and again..

Everyone of us has a way to deal with pain, but broken heart really hurts, you feel pain in your heart and stomach, you feel that your heart has been cut with a knife, has been broken with an ax, and no one can heal that, even if you get back to your love and forgot what he did, or what you did, or what you both did…. You can never forget the pain, because it has never been healed…. You just tried to fix it as possible as you can, but it doesn’t really work…

Maybe if you found another, stronger love, you’d forget… but each time you remember that person who broke your heart, you’ll get a bad feeling… if you saw him in the street.. if you saw his picture.. if you visited somewhere you used to visit with him, you will feel bad, and remember the pain… believe me it’s not possible to forget the pain, specially when you love truly and being loyal to someone breaks your heart….

So please if you didn’t test that pain, stay away from the heart breakers….

Shrook Asfour

Cheating on

Why?

Why does the man cheat on?

Because of greed…

Because…

How can he live all his life with the same person?

Why should he only kiss two lips while he can kiss two thousands? Actually he WANTS TO kiss two thousands…

Why should he spend the rest of his life with the same person while he wants more than one? Actually he wants to have a girl per day…

Why should he live with her after he had already have her thousands of times? And he saw her giving birth…

And actually she becomes fatter and fatter everyday, he married a model and now he is living with a girl from the biggest loser’s show….

He asks her always to look at the mirror to see how ugly she became, while he doesn’t look at the mirror too, because if he was looking, he would see that he has a white hair on his head, he can never believe that he is getting old just like her, he is getting fat just like her, he is losing his hair… and he became someone else too, but because he can just open one eye of his two, he gives himself the right to cheat on and love, because he is just BORED of his life and his wife, is that fair enough??

You cheat on just because of boredom?

Shrook Asfour